Overwhelmed

   It all happened so fast. Last week Scot was unemployed with no hope of any kind of job opportunity. I just didn't understand what God wanted us to do. So many times I prayed and asked why He wasn't giving us opportunities to serve Him when He knew that was our heart's desire. I started wondering if we should be doing something more. Maybe God wanted us to pursue a new direction.

   It broke my heart everyday to see Scot unhappy and unfulfilled. I didn't know how to help. Every option and possibility I suggested only frustrated him more. I told him that I thought loosing his job was a good opportunity to pursue a a more fulfilling new career, even if it meant getting more schooling. I asked him, "If you could have any job that you wanted, what would it be?" With a distant look in his eyes he simply replied, "I don't know."

   Why God? Why did you bring us here? Why to this small church in this small town? Why did you give Scot a good job only to take it away a year later? So many questions, so many feelings and so many doubts. Then all of a sudden everything changed.

   A lot of times we don't get the privilege of seeing the big picture or understanding why God let certain things happen in our lives. But this week Scot and I see the hand of God so very clearly, and sometimes it's almost more then I care bare. Tears of thankfulness flowed down my face the day we found out about this possibility of full-time ministry. Now that it's a reality, I can't help but be overwhelmed.

   All I can do is tell you that God is a God of fulfilled promises. Even when it feels like He has left you out to dry, it's only until He's got your next chapter ready for you, or you ready for it :-) So if you're confused and don't know what to do, or if you feel like God kind of forgot about you, keep trusting Him and seeking Him first because it's only a matter of time before He gives you your next assignment. Oh, and it's gonna be a good one :-)